Lonely emotions

As the night goes by,

I sit in the corner of my room,

sleepless, disturbed and stucked
into thousands of thoughts….

mumbling and thinking something,

wondering why, wondering how,

is life meant to be so confusing?

wishing for something,

that will shine a light at the darkness,

i stumble through this world;

Lost  somewhere in the middle,

thoughts echoing through a silent night,

wandering aimlessly, trying to find a meaning;

Emotions that nobody can see,

Emotions that nobody can feel,

Emotions trashed within;

As my heart screams for mercy,

my mind struggles to find a solution.

Alone and wishing for something,

Just want to wipe the slate clean and start afresh?

Raindrops

Here i am – happy and sad,
lonely and confused,
my life’s freaky phase has just started,
i am almost there yet i am not even close...

As i put my face against the window,
sitting and watching the dark, watching out the clouds,
it feels as though the skies are shedding tears on me,
as the raindrops fall gently to the ground...

It’s funny how life goes,
up, up and up one day,
down, down and deep down the next,
like a roller coaster...

I often wish that life would treat me,
with a little bit more respect, but here i am,
being tossed around like a
monkey in a circus...

As the raindrops turn into a downpour,
they seem to wash away my tears, my pain,
and drenching me from head to toe,
bringing a sense of optimism
to a bruised and battered soul...

Khushi

Sapno ko bech kar, hakikat khareed li,

Khwahishon ko kam kia aur khushi khareed li...

Is zamane se sauda kar ek zindagi khareed li,

Dinon ko bech maine shame khareed li...

Sabne khareeda sona, maine sui khareed li,

Sapnon ko bunne jitni dor khareed li...

Dil lagaya to gam muft me mil gya,

Pyar ko becha aur parwah khareed li...

Ghungroo ko utar kar leli kitaben hath me,

Rui ko bech kar jaise dari khareed li...

Meri ek khwahish ek din, kisi ne mujhse khareed li,

Phir uski hasi se maine apni khushi khareed li...

Zindagi ke samjhhoton ko apna bna kar,

 Khwahishon ko kam kia aur khushi khareed li...

Aaj ki duniya

Aaj ki is duniya ki bs yahi hai dastaan,
Awaaje hain kam, par shor hai bahot...

Tanha, mayoos lagti hai har surat yahan,
Khwahishen ghut-ti hai jisme, hasraten hai bahot...

Har ehsaas ka kissa ho jata hai nigahon se bayan,
Kuchh ankhen royi hain bahot, kuchh gurrai hain bahot...

Matlabparasat ho chuka hai imaan har insaan ka,
Khudai dikhti hai kam, khudgarzi bikti hai bahot...

Itne beraham ho gaye hain log yahan,
Hamdardi hai kum, par nafraten mahkti hain bahot...

Pyar, ishq, mohabbat rah gae hain bas naam ke,
Wafa ka pta nhi, dhokhe milte hain bahot...

Hawaye bhi rakhti hain yahan aag ka asar,
Khushbooyen hain kam, jinme par dhuan hai bahot...

Nakab hai har chehre pe yahan,
Patharon ki hai hukumat aur phoolon ki zillat hai bahot...

Ode to the Love of my Life

I've always been a dancing queen,

Forever and always rhythmically seen.

For me dance will always be my fist love,

Of my thirkan on the beats, with the stars above.

I cannot control the adrenalin in me,

When music is playing, my body sets free.

I simply love to dance and let myself go,

Let the melody take me and just go with the flow.

My passion burns and my heart beat races,

My body melts in with a million faces.

Music is my life and dancing is food,

I simply love to sway, no matter my mood.

Without melody, life would be very hollow,

It helps heal my wounds, pain and sorrow.

Every emotion can be emoted by dance,

weather its sorrow, love or romance.

I love to let harmonies run through my veins,

I work off all my problems and most of my pains.

Without music life wouldn't I survive,

I'd not have it's nourishment to keep me alive.

I will just say...

Dance to heal a wound,

Dance to heal a scar,

Dance under the sun,

Dance under the rain.

Dance is the love of my life,

I dance weather i m happy or i m in any pain...

I Love Rains...

I love the way you touch me,

I love the way you hug me,

I love the way you hide my tears,

I love the way you make me smile with your sweet smell,

I love the way you make every child happy,

I love the way you shower the happiness to farmers,

I love the way you make sky dark,

I love the way you make the atmosphere romantic,

I just want to request you one thing that please don’t

shower too much happiness because it spoils

the life of the people staying on road,

I love you Rains,

Just had a shower of happiness

which hides my pain completely....

Humari Adhuri Kahani

Khushboo ke jhhonke,

ek pal thahrte,

kaise hawaaon me,

kho jate hain,

Dilchasp lamhe,

aksar guzar ke,

kwabon ke jaise hi,

ho jate hain...

Jitni bhi thi khushiyan,

sab kho chuki hai,

bas ek hi gam hai jo,

jata nhi,

Samjhha ke dekha,

behla ke dekha,

dil hai ki chain isko,

aata nhi...

Rut aa rahi hai,

rut jaa rahi hai,

dard ka mausam,

badla nhi,

Rang ye gam ka,

itna hai gahra,

sadiyon bhi hoga,

halka nhi...

Uske pyar ka rang kuchh is qadar chad gya hai mujh pe,
ki ab na jane kitni sadiyon tak, na utar paega.
Par ek bahot bada sach ye bhi hai ki jis insaan se mujhe pyar ho gya tha,
un 10 dino me, kashmeer ki un khoobsurat wadiyon me,
jahan humne sab dekha...
Pyar, kashish, sath, vishwas, pareshani me sath na chhodne ki himmat,
us wakt uski ankhon me jo mujhe dikha tha,
us roshni ne mujhe deewana kar dia tha.
Par vo roshni wahin kashmer me hi rah gai, wapis ayi hi nhi...

Uska pyar meri kamzori ban gya tha, fir ek lamha aya,
jisme mai bhot kamzor pad gai, tut kar bikha gai uske samne.
Par voh us lamhe me bhi majboot chattan ki tarah khada raha.
Nhi jhhuka saka use mera pyar.
Aur us wakt mujhe ahsas hua ki,
mai paani ke bulbule ko bandhane ki koshish kar rahi hu,
jo ki namumkin hai...

Aur fir,
us bulbule ko maine azaad kar dia,
aur usi pal me mai bhi azaad ho gai.
Ab mujhe uska sath nahi chaiye.
Mere akele ke pas ab itna pyar hai ki akelapan ab mujhe daraega nhi.
Aur voh ahsas jo un 10 dino me mujhe hua tha
 voh hamesha ek meethi yaad ban ke mere zahan me kaid rahega...

Ab use kahne ke lie bas yahi shabd hain mere pas,
"Tum laut ke ane ki koshish bhi mat krna,
mai ek hi mohhabat bar bar nhi kar skti"...